fact 1: i have lived with the same crew of people since my early days in SL. when i started dating lucas, he introduced me to his sl sisters, one of his sisters left and sold the island to another sister. the isle of shadows was born and was a sim for bdsm. i lived there with lucas, with our store on the bay of shadows next door. later the isle of shadows was rented out because aiko needed money and we all moved to the bay of shadows, which is where i live now, in a skybox on top of my store.
fact 2: i hate to stand around with people. i always sit on a chair or the floor. standing around in sl makes my feet hurt in rl, especially when we are all wearing impossible high heels!
fact 3: for the first year of my time in SL i NEVER got naked. i was so very modest! i never had sl sex until i started dating lucas and i never let anyone see me without clothes on… i didn’t even like changing with others around!
fact 4: i love to people watch. i am a creepy lurker in clubs and places with lots of people. i love to go to rp sims and just sit and listen to people rp. i love to go to crowded info hubs and just watch people.
fact 5: i dress my avatar based on my mood
fact 6: i used to work for a very popular radio station in SL called phreak radio. one time i was even broadcast live over a stream playing at SXSW. i still have screenshots of lindens telling me my show was great. later i found out that their alts owned the radio station!
fact 7: for a long time second life was my only life, and while i’m not there as much as i used to be, i still love it all these years later, despite all the crappy stuff that happened, the drama with lucas, and the loss of some important people. thanks to second life i am a better person, i have learned much, and i have gained strength to be better in real life.
it appears wordpress.com has been compromised somehow and spam was posted on every blog i have hosted on here. not cool…
my 6th rez day is on the 11th but unfortunately i won’t be able to celebrate it because i will be at a doctor’s appointment getting needles stabbed into me (yay glucose test…bleh) so i figured i’d write a little blog early to celebrate the day.
when i rezzed into second life i was not looking for anything specific, i wasn’t there for fame, money, or sex. i just wanted something to do. i needed something to waste time on, and wasting time is what i did.
but while i wasted time i also gained quite a bit. good friends, good and bad experiences, and a few awesome new skills. i gained confidence, and social skills that i was severely lacking before hand. although i am still socially awkward and will probably always be that way, i feel that i am much better at expressing my thoughts, feelings, and emotions, to other people because of the experience i’ve had in second life.
thanks to second life i was able to open up and be friendly and make friends, something i have a hard time with in the real world. i gained a support net which helped carry me though some horrible times in my life, the death of my father, the death of my mother, and trying to climb though years of depression that had built up around me like a brick wall.
my 5th year in second life ended with a major change that left me a bit lonely in second life. i no longer have a partner there. this was my choice, and ultimately the best decision i could have come to. but it left me without much of a tie to second life. i can speak to most of my friends via other means, plurk, twitter, and things like that. i spend more time in the real world now which is great but i do miss my virtual world. i just can’t seem to find something that attaches me to it anymore. now with the coming of my son, i find myself even less interested in sitting in a chair.
i am not leaving second life, and this is obviously not a goodbye post, but something about second life seems lost to me now, just like real life used to. it is strange how things have flipped almost completely. i will keep logging in, keep shopping, keep wasting time (what time i have of course..), but its lonely here now and i feel disconnected. i feel uninspired… its like the rl human who entered second life is now in the virtual world, and the avatar that took from second life, all she needed, has become the human being.
i have no idea what i was trying to get at with this ramble, but yeah.. that’s where i am at the moment. over-complex as always.
happy 6 years nimil blackflag, you have served me well.
i’ve noticed a few people have mentioned on plurk that they cannot get the newest LL viewer to work for them. i had this problem too, and i was given a solution by oriana kuhr that helped me get the stupid thing to work. this work around is for people who have a 64bit windows OS.
when you install the viewer, it will most likely install it to the default x86 program files folder. for some reason this is causing problems with the viewer, making it strangely unstable, or just not even run. for me, i couldn’t get the damn thing to even load past the login screen.
to remedy this, you must install the viewer outside of that x86 folder which is so simple, even a blingtard could do it.
when you are installing, and see a window like this:
just click in the box and edit out the (x86) portion. (ignore my drive letter, i install second life viewers to a different hard drive)
your box should now look like this:
just hit install and the rest is as normal!
i hope this helps some of you get your viewer to work!
Edited to add:
more tutorials are popping up for other issues with this new viewer. if my work around doesn’t work, try this!
at the beginning of may, my mother died suddenly, leaving behind a lot of unpaid bills, worries, and regrets. while i won’t talk about that here (as i have already said plenty on the subject on my rl blog) i wanted to write about what i’ve been doing recently.
since my mom’s death, i’ve been exploring parts of sl that have interested me for a while, but i never really got involved in. i have this sl kid alt that i dusted off as a way to hide and cope with mom’s death, and i’ve just sort of fallen in love with the little character that she is.
juliet is a ten year old who lives in the care of my friend fenni, in a house full of meeroos and sugar coated cereal. her best friend, romeo, takes her on trips around mainland and she repays him with hugs (and then promptly says ew)
i’ve been a kid avatar off and on for a while now, but never really dedicated an avatar to it. i used to just wear a different avvie on my regular me, and use that, but i really wanted to have an avvie that was just a kid, with only kid stuff in inventory, and a different home than me, and all that good stuff. so juliet was born. and then i forgot about her… and then i dusted her off and made her pretty 😀
i’ve won my first photo contest! i meant to write about this earlier but i haven’t had a chance. the photo i took for mali won the hugo designs photo contest and is in the june issue of toosexy magazine on page 148! even though they really never mention my name, i am really proud to have won this 🙂 this is the FIRST TIME EVER that i have won a photo contest! i got honorable mention in the hair fair contest years ago, but this is the first time that a photo i took WON something…
5 years ago i set foot on a grand new adventure into the strange world of second life. along the way i have gained good friends, learned a lot about making stuff in photoshop and 3d programs, found a lot of self confidence i thought i had lost a long time ago, and found the love of my life.
today i celebrate 5 years of sticking with this place, even though others would yell and shake fists at the lindens, and picked up sticks out of rage.
this place is my home and i love it so much.
its giftmas time and lucas and i decided to go check out probably the BEST giftmas event on the entire grid. the love soul and nipponbashi sims are COVERED IN ZOMBIES! santa zombies to be technical, and they need your help to put a stop to their evil rein of terror.
lucas and i carefully donned out battle gear in preparation for the task at hand… ok i donned battle gear.
(actually he put on the santa suit but sl would not let me see it so lol this is what he was wearing when he got here)
you start out with a choice between reindeer or santa suit, a hud and a pillow starter weapon. the object of the game is simple, beat the shit out of zombies, level up, and collect prizes along the way!
the pillow sucks but it has a great death animation :p
i finally leveled up and found a ticket for the death hand which is quite useful though i keep running out of energy very fast D:
lucas and i took to the streets of nipponbashi and battled many scary boss zombies. i died many times.
we also browsed some of the shops and cafes along the way. someone translate this for me.. because i want to know what it says lol.
i found out that the cake really is a lie.. and often contains traps.
and lucas found a merry go round that makes you sit on a pig in a slutty pose.
we even found awesome gift ideas for arahan!
its been an annoying couple of weeks for me on second life due to some strange teleport issues that only affect me when on an old style ui viewer such as snowglobe or imprudence. so i’ve been using kirstens viewer since it allows me to actually leave my home. since i’m on it i’m playing with shadows since i can :p
test build 40 of the s20 viewer is very nice and anti aliasing seems to have improved from previous builds. still not great but getting a lot smoother.
my front patio is looking gorgeous… its kind of tempting to stick with this viewer. the UI is starting to give me less of a headache but kirstens does not include rlv or temp texture uploads 😦 i wish someone would fork it and patch it…
today was also the start of the mesh beta so i grabbed that viewer as well and tried stuff out! its pretty crowded right now so it was hard to log in to the test regions but i finally got in and uploaded a dumpster i’d previously made in 3ds max back in june.
this is what it looked like in 3ds max
now its time to stop goofing off and work a bit more! lots of cool stuff coming out at [ LuNi ]