berry’s dirty pervert meme

berry is a horrible sl pervert and so she decided to celebrate a year of memes by asking us all dirty questions…


since i am a dirty pervert too, i am playing along…

Sexual Questions: (for RL and/or SL)

What is your sexual orientation or do you not like to label yourself? – i am hetero-flexable. i am mostly attracted to men but i have my pan-sexual moments and have been attracted to ladies, and transgender people as well.

Name a physical attribute that you find attractive or sexy. – oh god i am a sucker for long hair on a guy… the longer the better…

Are you promiscuous, a prude or in between? – i’m honestly a bit of a prude! i prefer to keep sex between two people in a monogamous consensual long term relationship. i do not have one night stands nor do i have sex with people that i’ve only dated for a small amount of time.  in the past on sl i’ve been a bit lax with that in order to please my now ex, but i’m really just not into sharing or giving myself up so easily.

What turns you on? – the list is a mile long…and most of it is not something you’d want to read about lol

Are you dominant or submissive? – i’m a switch! but more submissive than dominant.

Are you into sexual roleplay? – i love it.. i love it in real life, i loved it in sl.dirty-meme-3

Which sexual position is your favorite? – face down, ass up, that’s the way i like to fuck.

Do you have any fetishes? – lots of them… that i won’t list here..

Have you or would you do porn, amateur or professional? – if i was better looking in real life, i would totally be up to taking nekkid pictures of myself but not full on hardcore sex. in sl, there’s always room for possibility…

Do you consider yourself sexy? – in real life nope.. even though my husband says i am, i just don’t see it. i see an awkward gawky dork. in sl hell yes i am…



so there you go berry i hope you’re happy with my TMI!


what gave me hope?

berry’s monday meme this week is a somber one. i’d like to first sit here and take a moment to give her my thoughts and love because she is going through a rough time at the moment ❤

for me the lowest point of my life was somewhere around may. my mother died, my father had died a couple of years before, and i was living with my mom in the trailer i grew up in. i had taken care of both of my parents during their final years and now i was alone. the man that i was completely infatuated with, was many states away, and refused to see me in real life. it was my breaking point, the straw that broke the camel’s back.

people who have been burned by trolls online and on plurk see it as a nesting ground for assholes, but for me, plurk saved my life. when i was at my lowest, and felt like i could take no more. these people who only know me as an avatar and a screen name gathered together, they raised money for my mother’s funeral, they lifted me up out of the darkness, they held my hand as i did what needed to be done.

i am in tears even now because i am still in awe that anyone would bother to do anything like that for me. i have not had a great life and i have never had great self esteem so i have a hard time feeling “worthy” for anything. the fact that these people who are basically strangers to me and my real life, cared enough to do this for me, and to continue to care and hold my hand through scary situations, has helped give me hope for myself, and for the state of the world.

too many bad apples can make one bitter to the fruit. i am pleased to say that i have found some of the sweetest of the bunch.

i wanted to edit and add this song in for berry and for anyone ❤

halloween meme

i should probably write in this blog more than once or twice a year right?

strawberry has been doing a lot of awesome memes and i am just too lazy to do them all, but i figured i’d blog the halloween meme, as its my favourite holiday.

lets go to a party

Meme Instructions: Share a picture of your Halloween Costume in Second Life and/or answer the following questions about Halloween. Don’t forget to share a link to your post in the comments and if you share a picture, feel free to add it to the Blog Memes Flickr Group.

my costume changes every day but this is what i wore to a halloween party last night.

  1. Did you go trick or treating as a child? yes! i trick or treated until i passed the legal limit for my area (which was 15). 
  2. What was the best Halloween costume you ever saw or wore yourself? my now husband once wore a costume to a contest where he was a zombie, in a fancy suit covered in dust, when they called his name to be judged, he had placed a hand full of rubber worms in his mouth, and pretended to barf them all over the judges table.
  3. What is your most vivid memory about Halloween? i wanted to be a vampire for halloween but it was really wet and rainy that year. my cape was a trash bag and i had to wear my punky brewster boots because of the wet. the cotton candy pink and blue of the boots really ruined the vampire costume, and i was upset about it most of the night.
  4. What is the scariest movie you have ever seen? i am a huge horror movie nut, so traditional horror movies do not phase me. for me, the scariest movies ever are the matrix movies because i hate robots and that is pretty much my worst nightmare in movie format.
  5. Do you ever get nightmares after watching a scary movie? when i was a child yes, but not really anymore.
  6. Are you superstitious? If so, name at least one superstition of yours. no.
  7. What will you be doing for Halloween this year, if anything, in SL and RL? taking my son trick or treating for the first time ever!

Berry’s Procrastination Meme

i am inspired once more by berry to do a meme because i have nothing else to blog and it makes me happy to fill this blog up with something for once.


  1. What is the rez date for your current SL Avatar that you use most often? june 11th 2006.
  2. Where was the first place you made friends as a newb and got to know people in Second Life? the angry ant! a club owned by sarah nerd back in 2006. it was an awesome place for new avvies and i made a lot of friends there.
  3. Where do you spend most of your SL time now? my skybox, my best friend’s house, random sex sims, goth clubs. 
  4. Who is your closest friend in Second Life? (only pick one). my sister, but i won’t name which because i have several and all 4 of them are equally close! so hah!
  5. What is the most favorite thing in your inventory? (only pick one) my photo album folder
  6. The last thing you purchased in Second Life? the pink fuel skin i’m wearing in this photo.
  7. What color clothing does your avatar wear most often? black
  8. Do you prefer to walk, run or fly? i like to walk.
  9. What is the craziest thing you’ve ever done in SL? when i was part of grendel’s children, we were next to a large vampire rp sim on mainland. flea made a rat avatar and we all wore them and invaded the rp sim’s sewer system, jumping up though their manholes and flooding their streets with rats.
  10. Who would you like to play YOU, in the movie of your SLife? it would have to be a cartoon movie. no actress in the world compares to nimil blackflag.

me me me meme

i stole this from ryker who stole this from gabby who stole this from other people :p

1. Who was your first prom date?
an asshole.

2. Do you still talk to your first love?
nope and i never want to.

3. What was your first alcoholic drink?
none! i don’t drink.

4. What was your first job?
i was a cashier for a small hippy store during the summer.

5. What was your first car?
i can’t drive, so never had a car

6. Who was the first person to text you today?
i don’t have a cell phone :p

7. Who is the first person you thought of this morning?

8. Who was your first grade teacher?
mrs. payne (she lived up to her name)

9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane?
i haven’t ridden on an air plane yet 😦

10. Who was your first best friend and do you still talk?
her name is brenda and i don’t see much of her now but we speak on myspace sometimes 🙂

11. Where was your first sleep over?
i didn’t get to go to a sleepover until i was 14 years old.

12. Who was the first person you talked/will talk to today?
my dad

13. Whose wedding were you in the first time?
in rl i have never been in a wedding. but in second life the first wedding i was a part of was for a girl named kim who i am no longer friends with.

14. What was the first thing you did this morning/first thing you will do when you log in?
first thing i did this morning was answer lucas’ ims

15. What was the first concert you ever went to?
marilyn manson’s antichrist superstar tour

16. What was your first record/tape?
i know it was something by michael jackson but i can’t remember which album :s

17. First hospitalization?
when i was born, i had to have plastic surgery on my ears. haven’t been hospitalized since.

18. First foreign country you’ve been to?
none yet.

19. First movie you remember seeing?
first movie i can remember would have to be starwars

20. When was your first detention?
4th grade. a boy was throwing gravel at me during playtime and i picked up a big rock and hurled it at his head.

21. Where did you first meet your spouse/partner now?
in second life, in gypsy moon before it was re-done. we met in a crater.

22. Who was your first roommate?
my brother

23. What did you do with your first paycheck?
bought videogames

My Inspiration?

zoe connolly started this meme about our avatar’s inspiration, and i figure hey, i could use some prompts for writing, so i’m jumping on board.

(picture stolen from jessyka cause she made it cute :p)

my avatar has always had an odd personal style.. not to mention the fact that she is a shape-shifter, which leaves me with endless possibilities.

my main style is mostly influenced by anime. i have always loved the style of japanese cartoons, the way people look, with their oddly styled, and coloured hair, and their crazy clothing.

my avatar’s look also comes from the harajuku street style of dress seen in japan, as well as many J-Rock musicians. i am heavily influenced by their outlandish style of dress and the fact that even with so many people in their country, they tend to all be so very unique in style.

yes i am a little bit of a japan-nerd…

my body shape is inspired by my rl shape.. from a few years ago. i’m not going to lie, i’m no a thin girl, and i have gained a bit of weight, but the body shape you see on nimil now, is the body i had in high school more or less, only with smaller boobs lol. my face is a merging of my real life self and more of that anime stylization which i find personally aesthetically pleasing.

some of my looks are also inspired by musicians and actors… my more dressy looks tend to lean towards pinup girl style. but i cannot pinpoint a single musician or actor that i am inspired by… i suppose its more the style they wear but not them specifically, if that makes sense? i’m also inspired by fantasy and scifi stories full of elves and hybrid people.

anyway, that’s me sorta.. to the best i can explain anyway.


i haven’t written in a while and i’m tired of apologizing for that.. so i’m not gonna. the previously mentioned carrie tribute dress is now available inworld at our store if you are interested in getting it. i’m kinda disappointed in its lack of sales, but instead of being hard on myself i’m just going to say that it was probably just not something the normal crowd would go for, not to mention its my first real attempt at making a dress. but i’m not going to let it stop me. no… i’m going to keep trying and learn, and do better stuff. i know i’ll never be some super fashionista clothing designer, and who are we kidding, i’d never want to be that to begin with. but i do want to make things i am proud of, and even though i am proud of my carrie dress, i can do better.

next week is my 3rd rezday. i have no idea if i am going to party for it, or if i am going to just silently let it slip past. haven’t decided yet.

i totally stopped doing my 365 sl thing and i feel bad now.. its been several days without a photo and i know i need to catch back up and keep going but i just feel very uninspired to do any photos lately…

i do want to get back into photography though and i have been trying to come up with a way to extend my abilities to the public. recently i took some lovely shots of my sl brother and his new wife ava.

caile & avacaile & ava

caile & avacaile & ava

they are adorable together ❤ but i want to do more of these and perhaps for paying customers :p (no i do not charge family..) as well as maybe do some creepier work for people who are interested in that sort of thing. i know i keep talking about it and never do it but i just can’t seem to figure out what to charge for stuff. that’s mainly what stops me.

oh speaking of photos there’s a butt meme going around the bloggers and plurkers of sl, so lucas and i decided to make ours a double 😀

i dunno if that will show up for everyone, i had to flag it moderate because last time i left a butt photo flagged safe flickr had a hissy fit. we have cute butts, flickr should be glad i put our asses on there at all.

and so my blogging for today ends. i dunno what else to say.

so i got tagged..

i rarely get tagged so i of course am doing this meme :p

i was tagged by the diva so here you go,the meme was to go to the 6th page of my flickr, and find the 6th photo and blog it:


this is a picture of keeran as he was floating over the dance floor during the end party for musa artis exhibition. he had to leave early so he was going to destroy his build first and i hadn’t even had a chance to alter my windlight settings so it’s all bright and cheery :p i don’t know keeran very well but he’s an all right guy from what i do know about him.

i suck at tagging people for this but i will tag anyone who sees this and has not done it yet :p